Friends

FRIENDS . Yes this word sometimes make me smile , make me smile and make me cry . But surely everyone ever met someone called friend , right ? It can be a not-really-close friends or closest friends . Friends are a strangers themselves , but we even know their name . Weird , isn't it ? Ah yes I used to have best friends , we were kinda close , people can see us everywhere we stepped on in this Earth , but not anymore . Actually it was my fault , because I already found somebody . It's not that I didn't want to be with her anymore , just , sometimes there are things we find rather confusing or bothering . I love her ; yes although we never tell each other because we would likely say "Eww er " whenever one of us say these words. Haha , it's funny  actually , having new best friends , but at the same time , I still have the one that always in my heart . Yes , her name starts with A . I won't say her real name , lets simply call her "A" .  What's so special about her ? Okay let me list it :-

1. She's really kind , understanding and really care about me at times . I still remember , when my father went into hospital , she said I should go to hospital instead of school . That really has touched me . 
2. She's really have this friendship spirit-- I don't know what should I call it - she wrote this cute little stories and have my name on it and I was quite surprised and touched . No one could ever done this to me . I smiled like an idiot you know ! Hahaha .
3. She's never broken her promises . Once she promised something , she would do it
4. She understood what I've done , although it was a wrongdoing things . 

My soul is stirring right now . I feel a sudden pain in the heart .I feel so guilty . Oh Lord I wish I wouldn't left her behind , she's my best friend and will always be . Dear A , I know you can't read this but I wish I could tell you straight away , but sometimes I don't have gut to do that . Because I know , in the past someone did hurt you so deeply , I felt truly guilt inside , I couldn't stop break down and cry .  Dear A , if you knew , I love you , yes , we are best friends right ? We shared almost everything . We have common interests , and we enjoyed it . I love you , although we never say that to each other --- FACE TO FACE . Haha .But if you feel I am totally leaving you away, I am so sorry . Forgive me . I know , I am such a bad friend to you :( . I am sorry . I hope we can stay together like this.....until God has ended our life :') Will ya be my best buddy again ? Please ? :')

To whoever read this , please take a lesson . Don't ever leave your best friends ,although you've got someone new , because they are the one who brought the real you and made you feel happy :')